KFC worker Redvers James Bickley told a murder trial jury today (Thursday) that he had no animosity towards his housemate Tyler Denton or her family but accepted that he had knifed them.

He said what he had done was not him – and said he had been fighting another bad side of himself from inside who had been getting stronger.

Bickley, giving evidence on day four of his trial at Mold Crown Court, said he had been aware of the other violent side of him – who he called James after his middle name - since he was a child, but had always been able to keep him under control previously.

Speaking about the night of the knife attacks which he accepted being responsible for, he said that James had come to the forefront and had taken control of him.

Bickley said he did not remember changing into dark clothes but said he had obviously done so at some point. He remembered going to get the knife.

He came back downstairs with the knife in his hand, he felt low and depressed and felt it was his fault that Tyler was annoyed with him and that he could not do anything right.

Bickley said he was upset and blaming himself and when Tyler, her partner Hayley, and sisters Cody and Shannen arrived back at the house after a birthday celebration, he sat on the stairs.

“I remember getting up, walking to Cody and stabbing her in the neck,” he said.

“I don’t know why. I did not feel anger or hatred towards her or anything like that.”

He said he remembered stabbing her with the knife twice.

Defending barrister Patrick Harrington QC asked if he targeted the neck, and he replied: “I would have said so.”

Asked why he did it, he said he did not know.

His next memory was being outside, around the corner of the house walking away.

He stopped, looked at his hands which were covered in blood and went back to check on Tyler.

Bickley said he had no collection of stabbing Tyler or Shannen.

He found Tyler who was curled up with her legs to the stomach and she was not moving.

The words he remembered she was saying was “I am hurting – I am dead now.”

Her top was covered in blood and he realised he must have done it.

He was not aware of a vehicle and the father Paul Denton arriving and said he remembered being on the ground trying to fight someone off.

“I tried to push him off first but I could not, he was too heavy. I remember hitting him with my right hand, I still had the knife and I accept that I stabbed Paul, “ he said.

He was not conscious of Paul jumping on his back but remembered being on the ground and did not remember a conversation with him .

Bickley said he ran off and tried to stab himself in the throat three times.

He said he had no recollection of seeing a car which Hayley had got into and did not know that he had attacked Shannen.

Bickley told the jury he recalled going through gardens and said he was on a house roof at one stage when he called his mother.

He did not remember earlier telling Paul Denton: “You have got to kill me Paul, it’s him. Kill me now. I can’t stop.”

Bickley said he did not recall some of the comments he made to the police including “You don’t know what it is like to love someone and they not loving you.”

But he said he loved Tyler like a friend or family and denied being obsessed with her.

He denied Mr Philpotts’ suggestion that he worshipped her.

When he told police he was sorry for what he had done and that he did not deserve to live, they were genuine feelings.

At that point he thought he had killed all of them and that he did not deserve to live.

Cross examined by prosecuting barrister John Phillpotts, he denied that he returned to the scene “to finish them off.”

The court heard how in police interviewed, he spoke of how the bad side of him, James, had become a part of him.

Bickley told the jury he did not feel he acted as himself when he did what he did.

“No. it is just not who I am. I do not get violent. I only use violence as a defence not to attack someone. They did not deserve it,” he said.

He never had any bad feelings or animosity towards any of them and said he did not want to injure or kill Tyler.

Bickley, aged 21, of LLys Aderyn Du in Rhyl, denies murdering Tyler and attempting to murder her dad Paul and her two sisters Shannen and Cody in September of last year..

Giving evidence on day four of the trial at Mold Crown Court, Bickley said that he loved Tyler but was no longer in love with her.

Said the manifestation of James in his mind felt a part of him which was different to him.

“It got to a point where I needed to differentiate between ourselves,” he said.

When he first named it James he was 12 or 13.

“As a child I was always aware that there was something inside of me,” he said.

When he was aged about four he had an operation on his ears and his mum said in the middle of the op he woke and ripped all the wires out in a rage.

“When all that was going on I had like a dream that there were two sides to me, a good side and a

bad side and they were fighting over who would control my body,” he said.

“I remember waking up really scared and was crying.”

It did not make sense but from then he knew there was something inside him which was different.

It had been there ever since. He was conscious of it on a daily basis.

Later on it affected his behaviour when he was a teenager possible 14 or 15.

“I think that was around the time the voice wanted me to hurt people, physically,” he said.

He did not succumb to it – he held back, and was scared of giving in to it.

When others broke his glasses in school he would not fight back.

In the months and weeks leading to September, the influence “of the person within me” was growing stronger.

Bickley said: “It is hard to explain, it was like a battle in your mind, it feels as if your mind is going to explode in some ways.

“I became more and more aware that I was losing the fight against him.”

It influenced what he wore and he started to wear black clothing.

He tried to take his own life a few weeks begore the incident.

“I felt really low, I felt I was not in control of myself, not in control of my life, I did not have anyone to walk to, I felt I wanted to end it really.”

He denied being obsessed with Tyler and said he had no issue with the fact that she had started a relationship with a woman. He said he told her that she was being true to herself.

Proceeding.